Dear Baby,

Another month, another fail. Cycle Day one here again, the witch has flown in. I'm starting to really give up and feel like we'll never get to meet you now. There's obviously something wrong somewhere after 15 well timed attempts and not one being successful.

Still, now that she's here, i'll get my bloods done again tomorrow morning and Daddy has his sperm checks in just over a month then hopefully by the middle of October, we'll have all results back and will know what steps we need to take next.

In things to look forward to, we have our first wedding anniversary on Monday and then on Thursday we're going camping for 5 days! Pray the weather holds for us baby?

Love, Mom x

Dear Baby,

This hasn't been a good week for us. Since I heard my friends news, i've gone to bed crying and woken up crying every day. I even cried on the bus on the way to work.

She can't understand why i'm not being supportive. How do I explain to her that everytime I think about having to watch her grow bigger I feel actual pain? She has what I can't have and I want it so badly. I'm even jealous of her morning sickness! What would I give to have that? I'd give up everything we own right now.

I can't hide it from her and why should I? She's my friend. If I can't be honest with her then who? But she really doesn't understand and is feeling hurt. I don't know what to do.

Love, Mom xxx