Dear Baby, 

Let me start by saying, if you're in there, and you've hung on through all the drugs i've had to take this week then you're a fighter!  Mommy's been quite ill this week with a nasty condition which thankfully seems to be clearing up now thanks to 3 types of antibiotics and strong painkillers. 

I got my results back from the first fertility blood tests and they appear to be fine.  One down, one to go then it's Daddy's turn (hehehe) 

You'd think the doctors would know what they're talking about wouldn't you, but a couple of things have happened recently which has made me realise this isn't always the case.  The first was my GP telling me to stop taking my temperature and charting every day, which according to someone i've been talking to who had fertility treatment is totally wrong.  She was advised the same thing by her GP but didn't stop.  When she was finally referred to the nice man at the fertility clinic, he told her thank goodness she didn't stop or he'd have sent her away for 3 months whilst she gathered data!  So tomorrow, out comes the thermometer and monitor and I get to wake up stupidly early again every morning to take my temperature and then pee on a stick to see if my body is behaving this month.  If i'm honest, I quite like knowing what's going on, I feel more in control. 

The other incidence was this week when I went to the hospital about the pain I was in.  The nurse asked if I could be pregnant.  I said I bloody hoped so after all this time so she said she'd test me.  I explained to her it would be too early but she asked a few questions and said it would be fine.  Anyone who'se trying for a baby as hard as we are, knows that implantation doesn't take place until at least 7-10 DPO (days past ovulation).  At the time I was only roughly 6-9 DPO.  So she tests and it's negative (of course) and I get all upset again.  Silly woman!  

Never mind, I get to test properly in a few days if the witch stays away (be gone Aunt Flo, you're not welcome in this house!).  Not that i'm SS'ing (symptom spotting) at all (oh come on - I wouldn't be a true infertile if I didn't symptom spot every single month!) but this months symptoms include enhanced sense of smell and i'm right off tea and coffee all of a sudden.  New symptoms for me.  Anyone who knows me knows i'm a tea belly, although since I gave up caffine for you I haven't enjoyed it quite as much.

Anyway, i'll be back in a few days - hopefully with the news that you're on your way, but if not, to rant and rave at how unfair it all is and come up with a new plan of attack.  

Love, Mom x