Dear Baby,
Well, here we are, a new year. Everyone tells us 'this year will be better. It won't. We've had news which gives us no choice but to accept that we will probably never be parents.
Today is day 885 since we started trying for you. 29 cycles. 2 1/2 years. Such a long time. Less than 1% of couples in our position ever succeed in having a baby of their own.
I've had some good days. I thought I was feeling better but lately theres a big cloud. It's hard to get out of bed sometimes. I wonder whats the point? I don't want to see anyone, I just want to spend time with Daddy. Daddy knows how I feel. We're coming up to the point where you should have been 20 weeks in my tummy. I can't help counting the milestones. I can't forget them, they're ingrained.
I miss you baby, I really do.
Love, Mom x
Hi there, I just wanted to let you know that I stumbled across your heartbreaking blog yesterday evening, and was so moved by it that I seemed to dream about you all of last night. Sorry if that sounds really creepy! I pray that 2013 will be your year, despite the bad news you mention here.
ReplyDeleteA friend of mine finally had a daughter on her 4th IVF cycle. They entered into the cycle with hardly any hope, but only with the thought that if they didn't go for it, one day it would be too late and they would regret it. Another friend had twins after several IVF cycles, and a few months after they were born, she fell pregnant naturally. On a sadder note, another couple I know went through absolute hell trying to conceive but were unsuccessful, and whilst they never got the family they longed for, the fight made them stronger as a couple.
You probably hear stories like this all the time - forgive me if you do. I guess it's just impossible to read a harrowing account like the one you've written here without trying to do something to try to give you some hope and make you feel better (even if it just makes you roll your eyes instead!).
I really hope you finally get your baby - and if you don't, I really hope you eventually find acceptance, peace and happiness xx