Dear Baby,

The first news is that Mommy is now 10 days into giving up smoking for you! Willpower only. I haven't touched a cigarette since Monday 20th September and i'm doing good. I think this time i've cracked it. Watch this space.

In other news Daddy's second SA reults are back. We haven't got them yet, the doctor wasn't in today so we'll call tomorrow to book an appointment. I'm very aprehensive now as this is it - this is where we find out what options we have. It is good in that whatever the news, at least we know and we can deal with it but still.....it's very scary.

Mommy has ovulated according to her chart. I'm not convinced to be honest - I took a lot of herbal pills this month and again, I don't think it did me any favours. That'll learn me! Ahh well, we'll see.

I am now the proud owner of a CBFM (Clear Blue Fertility Monitor) sent to me by one of my TTC buddies (who by the way is now almost 4 months pregnant! :angrysmiley:) Yes, yes, I know I have a monitor already, but whats one more stick to pee on in the morning right? I tried saying no thanks but she just wanted to help. As does everyone. It didn't hurt me to say yes and thank you and probably made her feel a whole heap better.

Meh.

I said to Daddy last night, I just want to stop with the temperatures and peeing on sticks and sex on demand. If the doctor tells us we won't do it ourselves and we need help then finally we can stop all this - knowing it won't make any difference. Until we're told tho, we'll just keep on hoping and trying.

Love, Mom x